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2010-01-17T06:48:00.000-08:00

so much to do but only 1 sherry.

desires vs obligations.

argh. crap.

2009-08-28T05:47:00.001-07:00

God makes e GREATEST IMPOSSIBLE possible!I survived w 4hrs of sleep yesterday...n today w 3hrs of sleep!
AND somemore i'm such a pig!I need at least 6hrs of sleep!n e only time I really survived w 6hrs of sleep was for o lvl...ya..tat bad.
And there's a long story behind e 3hrs of sleep!god was very cute!I was trying to sleep at 11+ listening to a lecture recordin..den suddenly at 12+..my fren reply my sms 1hr20min late..den at e same time e lecture juz finish.ya super dramatic!den i was practically wide awake!went to study until 2.55 den insomnia until 3.40!
woke up at 6.40!n nt e tired kind of wake up rather like e 6-8hrs kind...quite fresh.(:
God did not turn his face away..juz tat i haven been working hard :x prob took his grace for granted..but seriously i have no motivation!i din really choose nursing afterall... ...

2009-08-26T20:36:00.000-07:00

0%done for tmr's mic...11more hrs to e exam!11chap to go...at least 5hrs of sleep needed!so 6hrs for a subject I hate most!juz flipping thru e pages...sigh.and there's no dg nor cell this friday !:( meaning also no shape!:(shall go find my little jaren den!(: he sure makes my day!
Looking forward to 31st too!ministry outing !ohh..n was thinking of joining navigators too...not sure...scared i'll burn out...sigh. haix...

2009-08-26T17:35:00.001-07:00

Juz finish paper..this morn before e paper my life was real screwed!everything is juz so wrong!but god was gracious..wad I studied came up!but...I think I screwed it all up.. :( sigh.and there's a 10marks question which I din manage to do coz I din study :( hope god do a miracle for me! :( sigh...

2009-08-26T09:36:00.000-07:00

life is amazing. the way god do things. how he really turns the situation. it's hard to explain.

i get frustrated at first when things go wrong esp when u dun see e big picture. but as you are "forced" into the circumstance..god slowly reveals n then you start to see the big picture and you know it was not a coincidence tat kind of thing.

k. here goes e long story...

this afternoon, my fren called me to ask me help her take over her work coz she has to send her pet for grooming(appointment). yup. gave quite a lot excuse but gave in coz she's quite gd in convincing and coz the appointment. but i was quite pissed coz i planned to study n rest before goin cell. but when i reach there i was only filled with joy&high-ness(it's hard to explain)n i met a new colleague. so this girl is really special..as in she's quite open..like i know her less than a hour she tell me tat she has alot of family problems n stuffs(but din really elaborate).but she kept repeating some questions ..related to her self esteem n self confidence? yup was rather bad. dunno whether it's intentionally so tat she can get attention or juz really super low confidence. n i juz felt tat this girl prob really needs god? ya she's a buddhist. i think her uncles and aunties are erm...mediums??? it's complicated. only know her for like 3hr??? sigh. do pray for her. :(

2009-08-09T02:44:00.000-07:00

ahhh. finally. it's over..main service was gd juz tat those KPO aunties(:x) ard with those kind of stares irritates me alot. was glad tat i was nt affected to the extent of leaving halfway during the service. somehow felt tat God said it's ok. He even reminded me tat i'm accountable to Him[and i'm NOT CONDEMNED!] n NOT ACCOUNTABLE TO THE AUNTIES.. thru a convo i had w yvo few wks bak. n for serving..kinda felt He really wans me at GNK..i did some "tikum tikum" 2 weeks bak n it was GNK..so today a. salome came n approach me. rather weird coz i thot i was already in tat ministry? o wells. i'm bak in it! (:

wah this few wks been learning alot..life gets amazing n exciting each day. discovering His will and what's He's going to teach me each new day was cool n interesting! That toughest 1wk was prob worth it coz it brought me bak to Him.

maybe i shld start blessing others now tat i'm filled w joy almost daily..before another trial starts coming up. :x hah. n when i'm tired i shall rest n be alone(: yup. (:

as for the gifts which i discovered..evangelism n encouraging..hopefully He reveals to me how to use it. (:

else i might keep them in my cupboard =x

A verse yesterday tat brightens my day coz it kinda guide me(: Jhn12:26 (:

2009-08-06T06:19:00.000-07:00

juz realised smt. when you intentionally do something(for a good cause), it is likely for it to backfire. stupid. i feel so dumb. ARGH!

i've been doing quite well for my tests and quizzes(those not online one) coz i prayed(i really study very little!)... so i was like telling my frens tat all I did was my best n prayed. but juz now on the bus i start to analyse this..and realise tat it will mislead ppl to think i'm a closet mugger! =.= and tat would like prob affect ppl's opinion of us christians! =.= how stupid! trying to sow some seeds here n there...only to make things worse. argh! so freaking irritating.

today had this MIC mock exam of which today i only spent 5-10min studying..n ZERO min n hr on other days...i gt a passing mark of 17.5/35! and tat is really the power of prayer! not tat i dun wan to study..juz tat these few days n weeks have been caught up with stuffs, emo frens ard, other tests and subjects i'm focusing on. God has been so real man. though a lot of my frens "did"(cheat)well like full marks...and others who studied got 20++...my joy is overwhelming. i feel so blessed. got to spend some time alone today in sch. shall nt tell ur my hideout. :p n it was great spendin juz a little of my time alone with Him (:

ok shall end here! :)

2009-07-28T03:31:00.000-07:00

sigh. it seems like everything's going haywire. so much problems in 2days and it's nearing practical exams and final exams! argh! pissed.

today... had a childish "fight" with a fren who is in her mid 30s! =.= my frens were tokin abt me posted to CGH(changi)which is very far coz i stay at jurong. so i was like "ya la! *slam table twice*u la!" to this fren. she suddenly juz fan lian. I find it really irritating coz apparently she was ok w it when i did tat yesterday evening and this morning. so suddenly she left her seat and went to the last seat and sit. i was like what on earth!!! everyone knows it's joking ard esp when my tone is really the crazy crazy kind one. she juz cant take it lor. den after tat class..she happen to go out 1st so she was waiting for the lift. obviously the lift is slow so when i reach the "lobby" she saw me and faster giv a certain kind of look(not at me...but the "i dun feel like seeing u"look)and went down the stairs. so i was like even more pissed lor! like hey...i haven even go near u and u did this?! i couldnt even find out wad make her angry or irritated. so i planned to skip my nxt CITS class which is like business CATS class..useless n boring. but i saw e teacher so i juz went lor =.= during the class i still can hear her talking n even laughing! i was like...gd lor... coz i rmb she said she was quite surprised she can clik w me n nw she juz fan lian bu ren ren tat kind of thing. i was rather upset den i finally couldnt take it..i went out of class w my hp to the stairs n cried real hard. but my frens thot i left coz of the 2guys beside me who were noisy n fooling ard.

den after class...i faster chiong out n go to library coz i dun wan to eat alone bcoz of a comment my colleague made... i ended up w choco hello panda n strawberry oreo bbt! n i bumped into my ex classmate n he agrees tat it was a joke.left library, wanted to study at canteen1 but i broke dwn again.so i start to pray.. den lecture. i din sit with her. duh. coz i cant be tat thick skin to sit beside her..n it most likely end up tat i was in e wrong. n so i couldnt do it coz i always wanted n pursue justice. how much more this time? after lecture..i was w my grp mate who wanted to copy my notes so we went for nxt tutorial together. n tat particular fren haven reach yet(surprisingly) so we sat dwn first. n when she came, she sat behind the grp sitting behind ours. which was zzz...coz in front of my row...my 2 grp mates were sitting there..she can juz join them! after 1 of the grp had finished presentation for a few moments..she actually cried. and the worst thing is they saw it. so 3 of them actually chased after her to the toilet. and after very long while, they came back. so i felt tat she might hav told tales to them since the 3 girls were whispering(but i couldnt really hear). but they stop e min the class is quiet n continue when the class is noisy..isnt tat fishy?

n i heard her side of story frm another fren. she said she thot i was scolding her...and she's very hurt coz i(her fren) accuse her. n i cant believe this actually came out of her mouth. a mid 30s lady. i'm very afraid she's juz making up tales..coz the most pathetic u look n cry..ppl will side u...and somemore she used to be in an office full of this kind of "politics" and she once said she was not very gd at it...so obviously she did it...but she's juz tired of gao xiao dong zuo everyday.

and basically i'm afraid she will do this to me..apparently i cried but din let anyone know by covering with my fringe. n i told my side of story only to 3 person whom i'm very close with n the others i din. as for her i'm not sure. the only reason i din tell others was i din want to do those kind of backstabbing n betraying again. ya again. bcoz it will really hurt god's feelings. he loved me so much.. last time primary sch..i was able to influence my frens to dislike a person to the extent of ostracising but also make them accept the person back again..it's weird la. e only reason i manage to control was prayer.

so basically we din tok to each other now. i'm not sure whether i should eat the humble pie coz i really feel it's nt fair. gonna pray abt this. i haven cried for this long. but i think i will study more bcoz of this. tats hw i work . o.O

2009-06-27T06:43:00.001-07:00

ooo..nv blog for 2 weeks le...haha busy w Clinical Attachment. I LOVE ST LUKE(Bukit Timah) they love the old folks and really take gd care of them! :D anyone wan join me be volunteer on 1 fine day? xD woodlands polyclinic was nt bad..juz tat some 2 ppl spoil my whole attachment. =.=

but the nurses there are quite nice coz they really teach us..and there's this Dr Anita..really make me feel like being a doc instead of nurse. =x o wells.

today i ate SUKIYAKI BEEF and it tastes SUPERB! my colleague help me cook somemore. (: den 50%! :D wahaha. $4.45 :D

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2009-06-12T10:08:00.000-07:00

time flies. almost 1 mth nv blog. been busy. w sch, studies, tests, facebook! hah. i only like e facebk part. xD

sch wasnt really stress..considering e fact tat there are hints as to wad exactly is coming out..

but i haven really been studying for e common test which is worth 20%! how can i take all the 5%quiz so seriously yet cant be bothered abt e test? at first i thot i was discouraged coz after all tat studying...i still get e same marks as my classmates. but it wasnt e main reason. i realised my 0 motivation was due to pretty low interest in nursing..or rather i dunno y god put me in nursing. i know he has a purpose but i have yet to unravel it.

actually..i do kinda like nursing. it's ironic. prob coz i dun like the "dirty part". sigh.in fact e modules are quite ok. maybe more on e purpose part i guess...so have to pray more. but for the CT i think wil still pass coz i really prayed coz no matter hw i convince myself to study(in my head) my body is not doing it. like stare at the book, play ds, open bk, pack bag, open bk, daydream, open bk, Quiet time. =.= guess i really gotta pray. (: god is faithful. today i happily go to sch w 2+3quarter chap covered out of 5. manage to cover another 1+1/4 in less than 1 hr.the questions in the MIC test happen to be wad i covered although i think i lose 8marks out of50 but i think i can pass. i think better than a pass. o.O

2009-05-21T04:22:00.000-07:00

god have been gracious, doing a lot of miracles in my quizes. lol. i haven been really putting effort and i still do well. well as in really well. at least to me! -.- like today's microbiology one is 13/15 when i din even finish studying chap 3 n 4 yesterday. i only did it today. yup. thank god.

but i'm beginning to think tat nursing is not for me?? i dunno. clear da bian... and "last office"... can i overcome my own psychological barrier? sigh. many things happening n i juz dunno wad to do. i nid to pray more. sigh. k. gotta go eat dinner. take care ppl!

2009-05-15T07:58:00.000-07:00

this whole week's been so busy! or rather i juz thot it was. coz i have been sleeping so little for 5DAYS! 5-6hrs of sleep daily for 5 days. walking zombie since yesterday. today had 8am lecture but she was going thru lessons which all tutorial teachers supposed to give us...and my class juz happen to dun have. so i slept. OK! i'm juz making excuse..but it's more on HISTORY!

but after tat i was able to concentrate for all other lessons! :D worth e sacrifice.

went aunt's hse! played w my nephew. =pp and he's so cute...told him Gen1:1 expecting him to understand. haha. (: ate dinner w aunt n uncle den went to NTUC union?

went to buy my B.P. set! $90 over dollars and now i'm experiencing some problems with it!

stupid mercury wont go up even when i pump. the cuff oso like i squeeze(with pump locked)it still leaks.. o.O wad on earth?! need to go bak tmr. =.=

2009-05-13T07:19:00.000-07:00

the power of prayer - never underestimate it

but prayer has to be done with your heart before it works..

coz often i prayed for the sake of praying but only to realise tat it wont work?

juz this 2 days have been sleeping real late so i prayed for strength n jing shen.

yup. god granted tat. (: i actually survived with 6hrs of sleep on Mon and 5over hrs of sleep today.

it's amazing! coz i'm a pig..i need 10hrs of sleep a day...hmmm...

first DG today. felt kinda weird. coz i'm doubting..i'm doubting the ppl ard me... AGAIN! :(

is she really nice or is she just being nice? sigh.

but i'm glad i went for LM! ((: before tat spent hours studying but cant memorise a single thing.

LM's worship was gd! coz holy spirit was there! :D and i found out tat i spent only minutes like at most 20-30mins to study wad i was unable to study the whole day! my god is so gracious! :D

Seek first the kingdom...and all these things will be given to u... ((: wee hee.

today's word was on "molding" i'm prob going thru 1 of those. (:

2009-05-07T06:28:00.000-07:00

sigh. i'm so distracted i cant study rite now. pepper lunch. will i still enjoy working at pepper lunch when this captain i really like is gone?? and i've been trying to figure wad happen but i couldnt n i cant study i cant focus. argh. i actually cried for this someone i know for less than 3mths(2.75mths).but he was more than a captain, more than a fren. prob like some big bro or uncle tats so nice..sigh. may god reveals. :(

anyway thank god! i did well for a NSL quiz yesterday. ((: i only studied like in the morn coz i was down w flu e day before n need to sleep... and i expected 6/10 but i got 8/10! wow! it's amazing how god works when you PRAY! i juz realised i haven did today's microbiology infecion control L1 quiz..argh! went home halfway..was so sick so i cab home. went to sleep den felt much better but went to see a doctor for the MC =x hah.ok.i need to pray n STUDY though nothing's gonna get into my head. i'm still bothered abt it.haix.

2009-04-30T08:03:00.001-07:00

i finally know why. i was drifting away from god n i din even realise it. it was only when i did daily bread on tues. God spoke. i was struggling between campus crusade(wed) and studies. i din wan to go coz i really wanted to do well for nursing though i din really choose it. but this familiar verse appeared on the daily bread. "Seek first the kingdom of the Lord and all these things will be given to you". well. of course in the end i went for the campus crusade thing. it was good coz i could feel the holy spirit during worship. (: well there are still many thots going on in my head. so many ??? i guess i've to pray abt this ..
oh. sch. i got this classmate which makes use of me n she prob thinks i din noe?! when she's alone she'll ask me pei her den after tat if have class...like she will sit at the better seat to dump me alone. ok. nvm. but e point is she din even like say "hey i sit over there hor." to think i wait for like really long in the toilet! make me late somemore! arghhhhh! she is worst than someone i noe 2yrs back. god seems to like putting pang-seh kias ard me. =.= prob he wans me to love them. this time he make it harder for me to "level up". pang-seh nvm u noe. dun leave like suddenly n like in a split second.. my reaction time quite slow de leh! grrr..but god is gracious..he gave me true sincere frens too. guess he really wans me to learn LOVE. i'll try. but it's goin to take really long!

2009-04-27T05:40:00.000-07:00

been busy w sch to update. and somewhere within me is battling against me. could it be Satan? at times..i soar to the skies of happiness but to sink into the abyss of despair the next moment. there's been so much negative thots going on in my head. this time..it seems like i cant win. i cry over the tiniest stuff. i gets upset easily. and everyone seems to be using me. though i know n tried to believe that it's not true..i cant! i cant seem to control myself and those tears juz come and go. it's frustrating! argh. if only i have more time...den more QT more joy. sigh.

2009-04-13T04:20:00.001-07:00

Hospital sponsorship. $850per mth[year1],$900[yr2],$950[yr3]
Should i apply? but i'll be bond to tat hospital for 3yrs. but it also means that i'll have a job straight away. dun have to go thru e trouble of finding job. but i want to take a degree but i'm not too sure about this yet. coz i dun really noe which field God wants me in. but if i were to work first n pursue a degree after tat bond..i at least know more details about the different fields.
i think there's this criteria that i have to maintain good results? if i dun...i have to pay them back the total amount they pay me?! that's like quite a lot if i dun do well only when after MONTHS. guess i have to pray abt it MORE. i made a prayer this afternoon when the sky was super dark n going rain. i told God to give me a sign...that if it dun rain even after i come out of the library(1hr++) it's ok for me to go for it. and tata! it din rain. hmmm. plz pray with me :( and the hospital i should apply. (:
Oh! and i realised tat my PDA is not going to be so toot afterall! it can store books! like on drugs? ((: wow cool! but it's $500++ dad's gonna pay :p

Random

2009-04-08T23:02:00.000-07:00

wah sian.. nth to do now. cant play bejewelled on facebook. stupid flash! =.= even the brain game oso cannot play =.= just finished playing some kiddy game "fashion fits"..my eyes are tired..4more hours to work! yay! ((: tmr is good friday. i hope i'm not working. tsk. i totally forgot about it when i wrote my schedule last week =.= i still put 10-3pm! which means if i got work...i cant go church! argh. hopefully canceled. =(
hmmm. ate Kuro-dinosaur yesterday. not bad..but the taste of milo powder overpowered the caramel taste. so not as nice as Goma-mitsu. As for matcha...i haven tried it yet..actually wanted to eat yesterday but i wanted to try Kuro-dinosaur coz they dun do it all the time. o.O o wells. school's starting. gonna catch more dramas! just finished "My Little Chef" not bad! the food is so awesome! lol. crapping in this post...lol

2009-04-07T10:01:00.000-07:00

decided to blog coz after reading quite a no. of blogs at this hour(1am)...感触良多..sigh. there are so many things going on in my head. The thought of Jesus' 2nd coming and the spiritual level of many ppl(including me) and the still yet unsaved loads of lost souls(of which many are my family n friends). i think i'm going crazy. so much to do and i want to help but there's so little i can do? it's awful. sigh. but thankfully..i think i'm progressing in my relationship with God. spending more time talking to Him..but sch's starting. it's somehow sure gonna affect the time i'm gonna spend. i quite like now..no school..just so carefree. o wells. sch starting is not going to change. juz gotta pray harder that i will set aside time every now and then. school, spending time w aunt&family, work, QT, Church, Cell, Exams, going out with friends. so much things. things going to work out i guess. by His grace. ((:

2009-04-06T05:58:00.000-07:00

it's so long since i last update..hmmm..juz lost interest in comp bahs. as in comp is so boring and work is so fun..o.O at most check emails, blogs tat's all. sch's starting. shld i be happy or shld i be sad? i dun like to study leh. sian. and project work. better pray hard for good group members. =x my parents finally relented on me working at pepper lunch when sch starts. it was God opening doors. (: well. it's a secret. i'm not sharing it unless u ask me personally...and tat's provided i wan2 say. =x may close my blogshop coz of idiotic customers. argh.

2009-03-08T22:22:00.000-07:00

saw this webside at xueling's bloghttp://world.doubutsu-uranai.com/index.html
some personality thingy..quite true sia. xD
Not true are in italic. o.O
You are Green Elephant, who is not pretentious and is a straightforward type of woman. People rely on you a lot. You tend to lack feminine flexibility and sensitivity, but because you don't depend on men, you can go about your business calmly and without being too emotional.You will not compromise, and your objective insight of things makes you look cruel and not having a charm. But you are not a cruel person at all. You like having your freedom, and just don't want to be restricted.You are not a shy person. You will have lots of relationship with men, and you know what type you like. You work hard and you learn hard.You have flexibility to a certain extent, and will not be discouraged so easily. Nevertheless, you take time in finding about yourself. You love peace, and will not get into conflict. You have perseverance, so if you get really angry, conflict will be protracted. Your life is steady and you are an economic person. You will not go buying things on impulse. Although you are an active person, you tend to lack reading people's feelings, so be careful not to become isolated.You are a very straightforward person, and can act quickly. But if you be too cautious, you tend not to be able to express your loving feelings. Nevertheless, you are good at looking after others, and have lots of chance for romance. After marriage, you will be good wife and a mother.

2009-03-07T22:51:00.000-08:00

been busy. or rather life is so up n down tat i dunno how to phrase it in words hence din blog. =x
as usual..today had cell..i think i screwed the word part coz i really dunno how to lead! like it's only my 2nd time. it totally stinks. no one seems to understand or have opinions?? anyway..i still enjoy working coz it's like really fun! xD i finally know how to use a manual can opener! marvelous! lol. hopefully can do more dish up instead of serving food. and thank god today dun have to work despite manager putting my name down for available on sunday. yay! Sabbath. ((: ok rest time yea? ((: hopefully cell stuff is gd.. (:

2009-02-26T08:42:00.000-08:00

work at pepper lunch was fun. but totally stinks at times coz the female captain always like kan wo bu shun yan... yesterday manager was in den i thot i was dead meat so i prayed. and guess wad?! he's exceptionally nice yesterday! like nv suan or criticise me but say stuffs like "dun kan cheong" even when i made more than 6mistakes? love god man! he rox! :D
though today sux...i still love Him :D coz i realised i forgot to pray abt today's work. den was really bad. like the female captain keep asking me do flyer(at escalator or in front shop)..den sometimes no ppl and i wanted to help the auntie wiping the spoons(left only3!) halfway have to go and serve food to many...i went to wipe she show me a super black face! like wah lao! wad did i do? there's no one outside the shop...how to give? so pissed sia. i juz hate the way she rejects me. YES! i HATE REJECTION! i totally hate it. i actually cried while giving flyers?! like wah lao. den i have to pull my cap down and force a smile when i give the flyers. i couldnt be bothered to speak"Have a look! No obligations" tat kind of thing. today supposed do cashier closing ended up doing service closing. wah lao bully. o god! i pray that u giv me favour and protect me frm hurts please! thank you god. amen.

2009-02-17T19:24:00.000-08:00

silly me! didnt even check out the courses before i went to appeal. wonderful.. =.=
found out that Resort Facilities Services and Management[S49] is an engineering course the day before yesterday. thanks sis! then she helped me check the syllabus and we're like comparing the Health Sciences(nursing) [N69] and found out that it's not that bad afterall. =x so was busy trying to "re-appeal". Called the polys and ended up listening to what S49 is good n stuffs like that =.= nvm. told to email so did it. and amazingly today they told me that i can switch to N69! THANK GOD! A miracle. there's usually no such thing as "re-appeal" i think. especially when mine is so nonsensical. i was posted to N69 i appeal for S49 and i got through. but i wanted N69 back. =.= stupid...tmr working at stationery island again! haha. ((: $$$ this month sure very little $. hardly worked at pepper lunch n need to deduct $50 for uniform... =.= o wells. cya!

2009-02-09T16:36:00.000-08:00

thank god!
i got a job. (: at pepper lunch jurong point (:
the ppl dere are really nice not as bad as rumours i heard. =x
god gave me favour! wee~
I GOT OUT OF HEALTHSCIENCES(NURSING)!
i got into resort facilities services and management
i'm getting well soon!

2009-02-02T06:29:00.001-08:00

omg. i sent out an a.m. mail with 2mp3 inside and the customer din receive it! like wad on earth? it's supposed to reach today. omg! how?! o man.. pray for me ppl! or else i die le :( how did it even happen ? argh! and i'm still out of job! =.= pray, Pray, PRAY! pray with me :( sigh.

2009-01-27T06:44:00.000-08:00

idunnowadshappeningtome.dunnowadgod'stryingtoteach me.i'msomiserable.it'shorrid.ithotitwasfinallyover.
butitcameback.lord.itcameback.thosethots.thosenegative
thotswhichiputinalotefforttogetridof.i'mtoo
uniqueforthepplardmetatpplprobthoti'maweirdo.
iknowulovemelord.iknow.butthecommentsofpplarebotheringme
andicanttakeit.ineedu.icantdoitwithmyownstrength.
icantcontrolmytears.
theyjustcamedownmuchasididntwanttoshowtheweaksideofme.
butatthesametimelordi'mtiredofwearingamaskallthetime.
i'mnotstrong.helpmelord.p.s.iloveyou.

2009-01-20T05:35:00.000-08:00

had work today. again. but i like it. but today's morale was really low. esp when i heard from my friend that the boss commented that i seem uninterested in the job. this was totally a blow from me. i hate it when ppl accuse/"accuse" me and stuffs like that. they dun even understand me. i'm too weird for ppl to understand. i'm fearfully n wonderfully made just that i'm too unique that it becomes weird. unique is just a nicer word i guess. o wells. "unique" sherry. at least god understands. hmmm. work is tiring but not very tiring..so it's good for me coz i wont lose sleep! (: i hope somehow they understand. shall pray. gtg. cya.

2009-01-17T06:58:00.000-08:00

sigh. i cant go church tmr. sobx =( gotta work. no choice. i wan my cell outing to chinatown! i wan listen the 2nd half of sermon! but o wells. guess it's good too. god has a reason. heh. coz i veri scared to see kay poh ppl... ... nvm. will see how's work life on sunday is like! must pray hard that next sunday i can go church. but my off-day is on friday =.= sigh. at least i'm enjoying my work. (: hmmm. gotta sleep! nites!

2009-01-15T07:20:00.000-08:00

just finished with the JAE. business!. hah! i love business courses! maybe it's god's will. ohh! and i found a job! Just hours after my results. like at nite? cool! today's my 3rd day. ((: at first morning was abit of negative? coz my fren was saying tat the boss was telling his wife tat i dun show eye contact to customers? ops! o.O o wells. so i tried to tackle my weakness today. dunno whether i survived. haha. it's habitual. hmmm... nvm. i managed to convince a customer to buy a card that costs $6! wow! i'm encouraged! thank god! i was praying in tongues(in my heart) in the shop this morning coz was really depressed. esp when i had language barrier with the boss since they are Koreans. =.= but they're really nice! or at least the lady boss is nice! ;P ok gtg. rest. tmr off day! yea! bye!

2009-01-12T15:58:00.000-08:00

it's depressing to wake up hearing your family backstabbing u while they thot u were asleep. it's so wrong to be backstabbing someone they love(or at least i thot they loved me). like yesterday they were so nice n everything...but today they were backstabbing. THEY WERE LYING THROUGH THEIR TEETH! disgusting! sickening! irritating! argh! All they care just seems to be their "face" their "glory". wad abt my feelings? doesnt anyone cares? Even my aunt joined in the talk. Even my aunt! the one i loved a lot. i cant take this. i was so gullible to think they are humane enough to care BUT NO! not in my family. NEVER! i dunno whether a psycological barrier will pop up without me knowing and stuffs like tat. they dun deserve my love, they dun deserve my sweet surprises anymore. it's only now tat i realised tat family may not be reliable in times of trouble. Only God. He still loves me n will never forsake me. my cell mates were encouraging, unlike them. is results the only thing they cared for? den go ahead!
p.s. I HATE LIARS!

2009-01-12T06:07:00.000-08:00

o lvl results. had a bad feeling yesterday but had peace. like prob e holy spirit prompted my parents to be nice...saying stuffs like "wateva the results muz come home...blah blah" it's so not them. i was totally shocked! i had a D7! A D7 IN MY O LVL CERT! LIKE WAD ON EARTH? and it's not AMATHS! it's humanities! which i worked real hard for(compared to amath)when O is nearing. like grr! so had my food therapy...ate milo bar, collon strawberry flavour, waffle. was so reluctant to go home but when i go home they are like quite nice... like "are you alright? how's ur results?" ... so i thot maybe my dad is gonna be like tat too..BUT NO! he wasnt! after his bath n dinner he asked me hw i did..den i was like..din mum tell him yet? nvm. told him. i thot he will be nice enough to say someting nice BUT he grumbled n stuffs like tat! DOESNT I FEEL UPSET OVER MY RESULTS? dont i have feelings?dont i experience dissapointment ? hello?! i was just suppressing them! besides my L1R4 improved 8pts n L1R5 10 pts(comparing prelims n O) so not tat bad. o wells. CNY coming. maybe i should go find a job while i pray abt NYP. god still loves me n had reasons for tat. just gotta decipher his purpose. hope my fellow christian friends are still holding on to him. God dun deserve to be out of our life just because of results n dissapointment. He DID SO MUCH!

2009-01-11T05:04:00.000-08:00

tmr the results gonna come out. dunno how it will be. frens ard me(who are smarter)kept telling me stuffs like they are scared and etc. but i dun feel that fear. not tat i'm smart or complacent but worrying doesnt seems to help. PRAYING HELPS! why would i waste my time worrying? o wells. i'm still not scared but maybe i'll get the jitters tmr..but i have faith in my God! Whatever the results, he will still prosper me. just that i'll prob be dissapointed in myself. Jeremiah29:11 For i know the plans i have for you, " declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
ok..we'll see how tmr. cya! earrings making time! :p

2008-12-28T06:25:00.000-08:00

hah. i just realised that i met anna for 8days! lol. broke record. i mean even at sch max is 6? 8 is WOW! last sunday was church den monday cell stayover. so next morn sure see her. wed Le Grande, Thurs XMAS service, Fri Shopping, Sat Shopping, Sun church! ((: lol. sounds dumb n lame but o wells.
ohh! and i'm looking forward to revival! real looking forward. but church is real far and going for prayer meetings at 8+ without my dad to drive i'll be like...sian... maybe nid to change tat attitude. prob closing jcove down? not sure. will pray abt it. AND I LOVE MY EX-CELL WHICH HAD EXPERIENCED MUCH STUFFS TOGETHER...like trials. it kept us closely bonded together and credit goes to GOD and my cell leaders! Hopefully god will keep this cell. afterall he is the BOSS!(but he's not bossy!) ((:
And god was real cool. i was asking god for his help to preach gospel to my uncle. and my mum's bro(another uncle) got me a chinese book on this kind of stuffs. but now.. the prob is i dunno how to make use of it..like i'm supposed to pass to him or tell that to him ? sigh. pray i guess ((:
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2008-12-23T02:54:00.000-08:00

wow. had cell bbq n stayover at rachel's hse yesterday. was fun. ((: wii totally rox! ((:
oh! and the double person bicycle is so not fun! i cant even control the direction when i was sitting in front. and i was so scared throughout. luckily claudia is good in controlling (: and anna was soo sweet! she made me a brownie at her workplace before coming over and it was delicious and beautiful! soo sweet! Then we watched Big Fat Liar and PS I love you until 5++ before we start playing True or Dare. No one slept! surprisingly! But the game was converted to True since we were more interested in that. xD and everyone like start to sleep at ard 7 while some played wii! o..and i totally forgot abt tmr's Le Grande. Better go off now. nites!

2008-12-12T18:03:00.001-08:00

wah. tireds. did flyer distribution yesterday n it's those door to door! so tired! din noe the rates were so low. o wells. now body aching all over. left with 8500++
sigh. muz finish flyer "project" den got money. so i cant quit halfway. stupid stupid stupid! but my boss is quite nice. he drove me to the hdb and i left my bag full of the heavy flyer in his car for dunno how many hours. haha. ok gotta finish my 500+ this late afternoon. today's my granny's bday! chinese bday. she dun celebrate her english bday. o.O weird horh...ok..gotta get moving.cya

2008-11-29T03:42:00.000-08:00

hmm.. yesterday my 伟大 de sister talked to me! all's over now. finally! *heave a sigh of relief*
Le Papillion event today where we were taught how to enhance our looks n everything. wow. some parts were making me real sleepy. not the speakers' fault or anything but due to my insufficient sleep bahs. slept at ard 3am last nite and woke up at 7am... and also coz i usually dread seminars or courses. the robotics course which i went for 2yrs back, i was stoning away..dun even understand a single thing. 24th Dec got Le Grande CHRISTMAS EVENT! anyone wants to come ? very fun de. dun believe ask Xue Ling! :P
now tat all's well i'm gonna put in effort to run my blogshop. (: have been MIA for weeks watching tv and slacking away. o i still her an apology. gtg.

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2008-11-27T15:17:00.000-08:00

maybe it's god's will. it's god's will for the quarrel. so perspective? nah. the daily bread said "The will of God is the gladdest, brightest, most bountiful thing possible to conceive, and yet some of us talk of the will of God with a terrific sigh as if his will were the most calamitous thing that could befall us"
maybe god has a lesson or many lessons to teach here. maybe to equip me with experience to counsel the broken-hearted(as prophesised). sigh. but i'm not going to talk first especially when the fault started there. at most, i'll only apologise for jumping issues. i dun need her to apologise but i oso wont talk first. i just din like the idea of losing to her..coz to her...it's like she won. i could feel tat 感觉 strongly.
besides i dun think she noe i had prayed on tat day at 12+ that i'll be able to forgive her coz i know it's hard. waiting 30min was driving me nuts. and saga seeds made me mad. 1hr50min is really over my limit coz i wanted to sleep and there's nth for me to do at nite coz 'o' is over. ok. tv time..wrote this yesterday nite 12+ since this was wad was going on in my head n i cant sleep until i get it over and done. so wrote it on a piece of paper n just typed them out nw. shall go n read hers after finishing downloading my games

2008-11-27T03:23:00.000-08:00

man. my sis is being irritating by reading my blog. wad makes her think tat she is always right ? since young, i have never agree with all her nonsence stuffs. but i just kept quiet. this time i'm not going to apologise like last time when fault was not mine. everytime is me. my parents are real biased. and i dun feel anything for them. i knew tat fact long ago. be it the root of the problem is who...the fault tends to be mine. i'm not going to let anyone hurt me anymore. no more. she can dun talk to me for all i care coz i'm not going to start first. even when i cook stuffs for my family to eat and she din eat, they blamed me for cooking too much. like hello?! this is the family i have.

2008-11-26T03:02:00.000-08:00

just read my sis blog. got more irritated. she act as though she dun care wad i wrote. and i noe she read. it's her. she always do tat. she said abt the CPF thingy but did she understand hw my dad felt? they were afraid tat this girl will not be able to return him his hard-earned money. coz her calling was missions. ya.
she said until as if she's been working real hard in her design. if she is, i wont be so irritated just bcoz she's in Laselle. at least u could feel tat real hot passion? but she's been watching shows and at most do a little bit of art here n there. 天啊! money isnt as important as compared to god. but to my parents working out there, it's their hard-earned money! she's been eating out though i noe it's important for her to spend time with her friends(everyone need friends)but sometimes i just wished she understood wad my dad always said. bcoz my aunt cooks, he felt tat the money spent on outside food can be saved. i'm not saying tat she shouldnt go out...zzz... maybe to her she thinks i'm money-minded. but i dun care. coz i dun spend all tat money on myself! it's wrong for me to change tat macs topic to job issue. but she just on her imac and sometimes she's at the living room sitting on the sofa watching wad we're watching(taiwan drama)..and her imac is still on. does she even understand? indeed, she has matured abit but i dun think of her age. neither am i. but wished she was more sensible. save energy, save$$! =.= bet she will never understand. o wells.

2008-11-26T02:20:00.000-08:00

she's at fault and do she think i'm supposed to patch things up? man, i'm never going to let her让我受委屈! If she din know, this time round she exceed my limit. since young, she is so capable of making me go mad at her n do stupid things like throwing shoes at her even when i was 7. and this time, i waited 30min before i got real mad and all i did was only take out my ds lite to irritate her. i actually wanted to confront her but my parents are sleeping! and yesterday i'm sooo stupid to even relent! i actually didnt complain to my dad abt tat matter which i'm totally sure he would side me as he liked us to sleep early for health sake. i regretted. afterall i used to be a complain king(not queen!) 10 years back. so what's wrong ? back to the hypocrite. she usually dun communicate when she watches shows on her imac and yesterday she broke record. she actually converse with my mum for quite long...she usually finds all of us irritating when she's watching shows and will shoo us off after few minutes. my first impression: hypocrite. and i'm rather blah by tat fact. and it din really bother me coz i have my aunt juz tat i never like hypocrites.
then today, she went to run and came back leaving the metal gates open(like more than half)..so my sis n i waited coz we thot she prob going toilet or going out. in the end, after quite a while(10min++) she din came back for the door den my sis sort of asked abt the door being ajar. den...she came out and locked the door but saying stuffs like "你知道不可以惹我”to my sis. o man! wads her problem? my sis is innocent! besides my dad would do the same thing oso! prob guilty?
man, if she din exceed my limits i'm sure i wont flare up. coz Sherry usually remains calm and relaxed, even in situations that may ruffle some others. She likes the role of a peacemaker, when working thorugh problems, Sherry tries to rely on successful strategies that have proven results..and They do not initiate confrontation, but have the ability when confronted to use their logic to win the case. [extracted from my personality style report done in sch last yr]which i found it while packing yesterday(when my sis not at home!)
wadeva it is, i'm real angry this time. i wished i had got back at her. she always think she's right and that's driving me nuts! cant stand it!

2008-11-24T22:04:00.000-08:00

grr! it's been 4yrs since i'm so angry! my whole body was actually shaking while laying on the bed last night. my sis which ppl had good impression was soooo childish! a 20-year old actually delibrately packed her table at 12midnight just because 她吃不下那口气！We were talking about macs delivery thingy and ya i got the information wrong. so what? does she even have to hit my head? quite hard. so we squabbled(ding zui)? den dad told us to stop so she stop first...only to realise she actually pack her table 1 hr later..like hello?! she's at home like the whole day staying in front of her imac and not packing her table!?!? 你不觉得可笑吗？天啊！so i just cover myself in the blanket and tried to sleep. but she went overboard! she kept on "ping peng" the stuffs as she pack and after 30mins i cant tolerate it anymore! irritated, i took my ds lite and open the "taiko drum" game and played the most horrid music 3times but not playing the game and she still act as though she is busy. SHE EVEN COUNTED HER STUPID SAGA SEEDS AT MIDNIGHT! one by one putting them back into her bottle..so nvm..i tried to sleep but too agitated so wrote journal and in the end from 12midnight i waited until 1.50A.M.(while doing some stupid things in the process)before she actually off the light on the ceiling when we actually have a table lamp but she does not want to use? how considerate! to think tat morning i actually dun wan to enter the room when my aunt was vacumming the floor. i was scared to disturb her since she slept late like 1+ or 2+ just to watch some shows? i mean cant she be more considerate? pissed, i set 3alarm to wake her up today. 1watch&1clock at 7am which i off it. den hp at 8am which she off it.
i din even like make her lose 1hr 50 min of sleep! and actually i planned to only pay her back half of it coz i really cant take it! she prob thinks that i dun dare to confront her last nite?! my parents are sleeping! cant she be more sensible? they have to work! It's been 4yrs since i last got so angry! even the cold wars i had weren't as angry as tat when i tolerate. she was the one in wrong ok(hit my head)?! she's spoiled all thanks to my granny. well, wad can i do ? she caused me & my sis to suffer all thanks to her Laselle! i noe there's nothing to worry abt $$ coz god provides. but my dad juz dun have tat 安全感..even heard him said he's poor(in a serious tone) to one of us(my sissters and me)...so do u think i will still go weekly for my keyboard lessons? it's so exp! $50 each lesson! wad can i do ?i cant even get a job.

2008-11-24T02:55:00.000-08:00

唉，我好烦好烦哦...昨天我明明知道自己做的决定是错的但始终这么做。。但是我也不知如何是好，心情好矛盾哦。。我知道他们非常需要人手帮忙可我却这么不负责人的一直想要逃出来。。更何况有一个人在他们的组已经要退出了，要是连我也走，他们两个可不可以应付地来？我也不知道神他要我在哪里为他付出(serve?)唉，我必须先过得了自己那一关因为我真得非常讨厌被人逼。。一旦被逼都有不堪设想的后果。。我这个星期天应该去吗？还是应该先去我老师的教堂“避难”一下? 我又不忍心拒绝他们。。但是我又知道一旦做出了这个决定就代表我愿意commit. 我更怕的是我会和祖疏远。。唉，希望我会做出队的选择。。

2008-11-16T06:04:00.000-08:00

sigh. last cell meeting. sigh. all good things has to come to an end afterall. but somehow i felt more sad as compared to leaving sch though the time spent was once a week only. guess the times spent in church was more memorable...all that suan tian ku la... guess i'm gonna keep recalling those times coz if not i will forget it(as said by some specialist??)
sigh. i'm confused. i din like the idea of being forced to do something i din expect. and when tat happen i hav the tendency to hate tat role even if i take it up reluctantly. and this is bad. this is wad is happening now! O God. if it's ur will den i'll do it but if not NEVER! i'm not gonna serve in youth. wad if i cant take it? i dun wanna stray from u. sigh. let me know. if not i'll prob be visiting other church this week coz i dunno wad to do! oh my!guide me.
ok..as for now i'm busy finding job..it's so hard! esp when many ppl are facing retrenchment n stuffs like tat! Grrr.. gonna wake up early tmr to read CATS! (:

2008-11-13T17:02:00.000-08:00

prom nite yesterday. well i din really feel tat sad as compared to p6 graduation. prob coz i din enjoy my sec sch days. it's so tormenting. anyways had an enjoyable time. i made my hair with xueling at some place and went to yew tee to cab. thot we were late but it haven really started so not tat bad. anyways went home and realised my dad said my hair was like nothing(like he told my sis or smt) waste $$. zzz. it was nicee wad! dunno style den like tat. men will always be men. o wells. took some photos. i spent like less than $100 for a prom nite?!?! still want complain. still love daddy god better. he got me a red ds lite export set at the price i wanted! he loved me sooo soo much! my parents are biased wad can i do? o i'm supposed to meet claudia, anna and rachel for shopping like now? and i'm still at home. hohoho. so tired. we'll see.

2008-10-19T01:51:00.001-07:00

sigh. everyone's so stressed. i wonder if i feel the same way? i'm still quite slack? but wateva i do (chem TYS, mark eng compre) i get so frustrated with the answers they give. i dun feel like doing anymore. i'm just doing all for the sake of doing. and with so many things for me to vex about, how to concentrate? first of all, this morning, out of nowhere they dumped us a big stone. and it was like they force it? even though we might not agree when they ask, they dun have to force us. and besides i told god this morn tat i will only do it if the impossible happens. when one of the 2 ppl i told god, tell me to do, then i will do. if not i will reject it. sigh. there's so much problems when 'o' is juz tmr.. friends. is it me or is it them?
is it me thinking that ppl treat me as rubbish or is it true tat they dun care a hoot about me? they are juz prob using me. and sometimes i know but i juz close one eye. do ppl understand the true meaning of friendship? i doubt so...and...why of all times now?
o god... deliver me.

2008-09-14T03:30:00.000-07:00

Count my blessings!
- I screwed my prelims just like i sort of screwed my P6 prelims so it meant tat i'll work harder coz if not i'll most likely be complacent....heh :D
-My aunt cooking me a sunny-side-up just for me when i was down. Thank God! He's sooo sweeeet too!
-My blah said the first from-the-bottom-of-her-heart word..even though it was just a "bye". It was just so true! thank god! ;) (p.s. it's not a guy)
-I rejected to go to a workshop which spots science 'O' level exam questions and is 90++% accurate but was on Sunday. So God will honour me and help me through, hence, i will not get F9 and chongchong will be wrong! ((:
-Last prelims paper on Wed! So i could catch up for most of the unfinished subjects and chapters on Thurs and Fri. ((:
**Bye Bye all ;) and JIAYOUS for 'O's!!!wee~~'O's are finishing~~**

2008-09-03T08:18:00.000-07:00

omg! my sis juz showed me some really intersting stuffs!
FedEx Logo and Toblerone logo!
The FedEx logo between the E and the X have an arrow! OMG !
All this while i thot it's so simple...Goshhh...
The toblerone mountain logo has like a bear at the mountain!!
Wow! I'm impressed! :D
Dun believe, go take a looK! It's so awesome! ((:
Google for the pics. ((:
cya!

2008-08-31T08:57:00.000-07:00

Rachel's Bday! BLESSED BIRTHDAY! ((:
prophecy. 1thing that din change for months(since i was last prayed for)was tat i still fear men - criticism, gossip, pressure?[&i dun dare to stand up for wad i believe in though the action was wrong] hmmm. okayyy. BUT It's very touching when He told me tat He was holding my hand all this while(when i was alone)and when i was crying..That's Him, my Love. My God. :D
He even wants to use me to glorify Him with my results even when i'm so stupid tat i have at times thot tat studies is not my thing&of dropping out of sch but hopefully end up like the next Elim Chew or Bill Gates...o wells. BUT NOW...He's gonna help me because of my efforts put in and my faith in Him(which results is not based on tat), NOT my INTELLIGENCE! Isnt tat sweet? i love my God! believe it or not, it's my religion, respect yea?

2008-08-22T02:29:00.000-07:00

wah geo&Eng prelims today. I felt so stupid. i actually sort of ignored the Holy spirit's prompting. i din know His voice. I wanted to study "beaches" yesterday but i forgot coz i was trying to finish other chapters(human geo)first. Then i study "Cliffs & Shore platform" and "Bays and Headlands" only and tata! it appeared too! It's all by the grace of God. ((:
Physics practical was boooooorrrrrrrring.... but enjoyed it all the same. i found bak my love for physics! i finally understand it thru asking chong chong. ((: But sometimes she dun wan answer ur question and next week is science paper...how nice.. =.= let's mug! ((:
I LOVE GOD!!!!!!((:

2008-08-16T03:52:00.000-07:00

What an eventful day! Went to Serangoon for keyboard lesson when i bumped into someone at Outram...never bumped into her before...ya..den keyboard lesson received new scores!!! "Words" by Bee Gee, soooooooo niceeeee! ((: then went orchard to meet 2customers and it was rather awkward...followed by dinner at home:Spaghetti!!! hohoho. i love today. so full of surprises!

2008-08-09T03:35:00.000-07:00

sigh. went to black&white camp yesterday and it turned out the way i want. i went because my friends asked me to go but they are busy with their invited friends, i understand. i was with another friend whom i dragged to go but she just din seem to be able to accept me or something..could tell that she was emo or something so i tried to cheer her up by talking all sorts of nonsence, trying to divert her attention but it backfired. She "push" me to my other friend which makes me felt like i was just a thing, not even human. i din understand why and all the negative pheronomone came and i was down. luckily, i had my cabury boost, loves the chocolate effects and i stayed high. after all that games and stuffs, we had to walk the dragon trail in Sentosa which i feared most...there's like monitor lizards and everything. nvm about natural fears since i prayed in tongues..there's the man-made fears which freaked me out. they were wearing masks, something which i was afraid of since young..omg lah. cried and it was super embarassing... =x man, the camp was fun but there's not much moral lesson, i guess. anyways, maybe i should change the place where is my sanctuary since i dun seem to belong there..but God said NO. sigh.

2008-08-06T00:08:00.000-07:00

haha. everything's fine. just that no time to blog...since Sunday wanted to blog...hohoho.
I LOVE MY GOD! >.<
Oh..btw my fren and i are selling Mickey MP3..So if you are interested... visit http://asuniques.blogspot.com cya. ((:

2008-08-01T08:41:00.000-07:00

sigh. i'm tired. i'm sick and tired of everything.
being taken granted for like a spare tyre and stuffs like that.
i'm tired of competing, i'm tired of studying,
i'm tired of putting on a smile even though i'm upset.
I'M TIRED!
i'm even tired of being a christian bcoz i will get left out.

2008-07-23T05:31:00.000-07:00

O how my soul laments,
Over the cries of the oppressed.
Injustice prevails in this household.
Of what significance am I?
A child or a insurance to their future?
My kingdom crumbles;
Darkness seeped in.
My faith I will not give up;
He was always there for me,
Even right now.
-Sandy
This text expresses my feelings right now. I wonder wad i am to my family n frens.
who truly remembers my bday n desire to celebrate with me? none.
all they could rmb was xmas. and even 4days before my bday last year..
my dad scolded me when i raised at my younger sis for being rude.
wad is this? but i'm glad that my fren asked me to join her in a blog shop,

fulfilling my dreams to do business. (: http://asuniques.blogspot.com/ Do visit! :D

2008-07-12T04:06:00.000-07:00

sigh. "Donation comes from the heart" -Quoted from my fren, yilin. today was walking around after keyboard lesson before tuition starts.. then got approached by someone to ask me donate money for the prisoners' family or something...den they asked for $2! as u ppl noe...sherry dun bring much money out but just enough so in the end i din donate. actually i wanted to donate like 50cents since i was left with that only.but they are selling pens so cant donate. goodness! why cant they have the donation tin? den somemore i believed the working adults wont really donate lor if it's $2...i mean like this is Singapore n ya kiasu...will they even donate a 10cent? zzz. o wells gtg. cya~

2008-07-09T00:29:00.000-07:00

sickening. came home to find out my 2sisters watch dou niu yao bu yao and was realli pissed lah! asked them to open door like so hard..it's not as if they busy and they just continue watching the show without me.and younger sis is so good at making my mum think she's so nice and hardworking. like if she study when mum's not at home. frens being so competitive n pang-seh kias. dunno why life's like this. even my aunt whom i love most din seem to like me liao. what is this man? i kept crying over all these things but why? why cant i divert all that energy depleted when i cry to studies, my passion, His mission? why why why ? i'm so tired. tired....

2008-07-06T03:20:00.000-07:00

tmr is holiday to replace the missed youth day. good. a day to rest n prob study...hahaha...gt mood and wisdom den do bahs? wah went mcdonalds today to study...not much but better than me dozing off at home when i study. lol. shall do that on every first sunday of the month! >.<
is it because of 'O' level that ppl are more emotional and easily hurt? i dunno. i think it applies for most people i noe n tat includes me. luckily for me, i have God. Friends fail me but He NEVER!
He loves me more than i love Him so i shall try to be optimistic just like i was last year.
looking forward to the end of 'O' lvl! den can work...xD and buy my DS LITE!!! ok tats all. bye~

2008-07-02T00:04:00.001-07:00

alot of stuffs happen. dunno the kind of emotion i'm feeling. guess i'm confused.
just last saturday my fave. dentist which happens to work at JMC which is so near my hse is going bak to woodlands for work and it is for abt 2 yrs. sigh. well, aniway God has his purpose...she was a god-given friend since last year june i missed her so badly(which happens so suddenly)that i tried to contact her but to no avail so i gave up. finally in september got to tok to her in msn and asked her many stuffs. den got to know that she drifted away from God around june. and also last saturday one was i sms her on that morning and that was when she broke the news.
got back cca results today n i got 13, a B4. 20 is A2. in the record, my teacher missed out the NJRC competition which i took part in 2006(2pts). dun intend to get that 2 pts since i could only minus 1 pt from L1R5 even if it is a B3. sigh. could actually gotten an A2. if only i din have tuition on 4thMarch and could went for some course in TP and a competition during the march holidays?(total 5pts++) so was like wasted. the TP one i'm actually quite glad coz i wont bump into her. but the competition one was like not fair lah! i was informed last minute and stuffs like that...and some stuffs i dun even noe...

2008-06-30T23:52:00.001-07:00

bak to sch. as usual on first day of sch is quite slack due to the long unecessary speeches by the authoritative ppl...and yesterday was CL oral O lvl...i think i did badly for the conversation part. topic is our view on shopkeeper placing items outside their stores... and i din know...i thot was some illegal shops they refer to..partly the examiner's fault...she spoke with the China yin which i'm not used to and she spoke quite fast. hey my grandma may be from China, but i dunno that yin lah. so made her repeat alot of times but still couldnt get it... then when i understand the question, i couldnt rmb this news appeared on tv. but after that, during the quarantine, i remembered lah! zzzz.. o well...gtg n study~ till then. been busy.

2008-06-19T08:02:00.000-07:00

tagged by sihui, xueling and kaisong.
Instructions:Remove one question from below, and add in your personal question.Make it a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people.List them out at the end of the post.Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged.Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all :D
1) Are you random person? depends
2) Have you gave your first kiss away? my mum or my dad?
3) Who is the person/people you trust the most?
4) Do you think you have enough confidence? i often was over confident.
5) If you can have 1 dream to come true, what will it be? go HOME[heaven]
6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain? at certain places only.
7) What are you afraid to lose most now? my aunt n uncle.
8) Do you believe in eternity love? yes, Him.
9) If given a chance to pick up an instrument, which will you choose? GRAND piano?
10)What is your aim for this year? NDS Lite n perhaps a velvet bear frm build-a-bear shop.
11) What are you thinking now? to complete the quiz fastso that my bro can play maple -.-
12) What type of person do you dislike the most? BACKSTABBERS,hypocrites
13) What is your ambition? find a good job n earn big bucks!
14) If you have a fault, would you rather people around you point it out? ya but be gentle.
15) What do you think is the most important thing in your life? love n joy.
16) Do you find it a need to have a boyfriend/girlfriend? not yet.
17) Overall, do u think you're a good person? i'm not perfect so i cant be good.
18) What are you listening to now? some korean guy toking in a show.
19) If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change? petty(i bear a grudge):
20) If given another chance, would you go to ITE or POLY? Poly!
Tagged are:1)Xueling[Q10] 2)Rachel 3)Anna 4)Joei 5)Kai Song[Q10]6)PeiQi 7)Sam.L(sis) 8) Stephanie(sis)

2008-06-15T07:12:00.000-07:00

back frm camp on fri. had dinner at newton food centre. their stuffs are exp! oh and nicely...i forgot to buy souvenirs since shopping was cancelled =.= how nice. cook spaghetti today! haha did it myself with my mum as my assistant. xD ok gtg. quiz tmr! >.<

2008-06-09T06:27:00.001-07:00

cooked spaghetti today with my aunt's help. basically i din really cook haha. church camp tmr!! looking forward...until 13th so wont be free for anithing and i wont reply sms. haha. kk gtg. when i come bak den do the quiz bahs. (:

2008-06-01T03:42:00.000-07:00

woots! IT'S GREAT SINGAPORE SALES!(GSS) xD
haha went shopping on friday and today. with the same person-anna!
wow some stuffs are really worth buying but i only bought 1 clothe.hah.
i'm aimming my NDS Lite so gotta scrimp and save! >.<
but the clothe like abit too long and small...zzz...the person dun let me try.
maybe should go and alter it. (:

oh ya!regarding my blogshop - as i found a better supplier for my chains,
the price of my elmo, cookie monster & big bird chains price are lowered.
they're going at $7.50 or $10 for 2dollies+1chain!!! GRAB IT NOW!
and there are other items like earrings and elegant necklaces...go see it!

2008-05-30T19:08:00.000-07:00

tagged by rachel lim.
.::Quiz::.
1. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
dad?
2. The last place you went out to eat?
school canteen? i have home-cooked food.
3. What was the last beverage you last consumed?
HL chocolate milk.
4. Thoughts at this moment?
maybe my true friend still treats me like one.
5. Do you bite your lips alot?
occasiionally.
6. Medical, fine arts or law?
medical!!
7. Favourite drink?
bubble tea!(maybe champagne grape one)
8. Do you miss anyone?
yes, my ex-dentist and ex-keyboard teacher.(no worries they arent guys)
9. What were you doing at 6.00 PM on last Friday night?
eating and watching tong xin yuan
10. Who was the last person you had in your room?
my elder sis.
11.Can you speak another language?
is cantonese considered one?
12. What are you going to do tmr?
going church and shopping at far east?
13. Who was the last band you saw live?
church band worshiping. hah.
14. Do you take care of your friends when they are sick?
depends. do wateva i can...like providing panadols.
15. Do you like to read?
i haven read a book for 4 years but a few pages.
16. Favourite colours?
ORANGE, blue, pink...i love rainbow colours.
17. Who is your favourite person to have a conversation with?
it would be good to engage in a conversation w god or maybe my babies in GNK! >.< neopets456 =".=",">

2008-05-29T00:34:00.001-07:00

What character from shugo chara are u ?

Amu

You'reseen as a cool and stylish girl and has become popular at school but what you really are just a shy, gentle, docile, and extremely normal girl

Click Here to Take This Quiz

Quizzes and Personality Tests

2008-05-23T03:35:00.000-07:00

Got stuck in the lift. =.=
i stupidly press this button when i got my phone to call the no.
haha. was bored.
this is after 15min trapped in the lift.
they off the thing.

yay! finally out. xD
Just updated my blog shop. please take a look at the beautiful items.

2008-05-18T07:09:00.000-07:00

sigh. since friday, everything just went so badly. it's so depressing. on the brighter side, i guessed God cheered me up. when i came home after tuition on friday night i have my mum greeting me with a smile and otah!!! den went to cook a new flavoured jelly and felt an achievement since i like the taste. ;D den on saturday morning, my keyboard teacher passed me a box of chocolates and wow it tastes great! but after that everything did not went smoothly as planned n at night something BIG but ridiculous happened. naturally today i was sort of emo so decided to go macs n get my MCGRIDDLES! yup food therapy works but it goes off very quickly. =x and to make things worse cell ppl were arguing over a cause which i just feel that they are abit over-doing it. it no longer feels family. school also got problems like i cant understand why ppl are despising me and getting near me just to make use of me. they probably think i am a fool or something but i'm just pretending u ppl are nice ok?!?!thank god i had a true friend in another class, guess it make a difference. (:
ate alot of stuffs today - pear juice, guava, mcgriddles, harshbrown, strawberry milk, corn drink, chocolates, preserved plums, biscuit, SMOO ice cream, char siew bao and bar chor mee.
gosh! i'm gonna grow fat! time for me to be on diet! xD

2008-05-15T00:14:00.000-07:00

little elsa gave me this! so sweet.

"This is for sherry" awws..though she din call me
jiejie. but isn't she sweet? xD

cant upload more pics due to some blogger problem. =.= next time!

2008-05-14T06:38:00.000-07:00

monday went shopping with rachel as well as source market?
she's so funny lah, make me laugh n stuffs like tat. even though
her thinking is not like mine...she's more mature hohoho. =x
did SPA today even though i was in combined science..teacher
wanted us to go n practise. n i failed badly i guessed. for chemistry
i make a mistake so i cant identify cations n stuffs like tat den somemore careless.
Z,Y,X i put X,Y,Z never read properly. =( den physics my ammeter and voltmeter is constant
throughout. 0A n 2V!!! where got 0A de? =.= hopefully combined practical wont have electricity!
o well gtg. (:

2008-05-09T02:33:00.000-07:00

1st combined science paper was great! at least better than pure. xD
but din study some boring chap. =x
and today's a.maths paper1 was a killer n i "finished" 1 hr before exam ends.
so rest for 10over min and prayed in tongues and re-tried the questions. tata!
i can do a few more which means 4-10 more marks! >.< k gtg for tuition. =pp
uh oh i think it's quite imappropiate for me to put up my sale of stuffs here. =x
so created a tempo blog. red-cherries.blogspot.com

2008-05-04T22:53:00.000-07:00

i'm selling this!! Please buy~ 2 pendants w chain at only $6!!! lol i cant rotate it leh. lol. gotta study bye. sms me or tag to let me know if u are interested. xD

2008-05-03T04:45:00.000-07:00

comp. spoiled. so used sis's comp. :p i saw "rainbow" on murky water at canal and on some stranger's watch. lol. but reminded me of Noah's ark story where rainbow symbolises promise. (:

and ya His promise. "Do not be anxious about anything,but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God" Phil4:6 maybe it don't sound like promise but it matters alot to me. i was wondering if prayers could change God's will(or some ppl calls fate). ya i guess it did for this time. (: hopefully my prayer will be answered! Amen!~ cant upload photos. another day. (: byes. gd luck for MID YEARS! >.<

2008-04-30T04:01:00.000-07:00

started today with bad stuffs. but ended happily i guess. (:
-forgot t-shirt for NAPFA.
-forgot to wear back my retainers.
-got scolded for not going for cca photo-taking which i know nth of.
But GOD IS GOOD and SWEET!
though for NAPFA most stations i deproved badly, my shuttle run i improved!
from always either D, E, F to a C!!! tat teacher rox! ;)
den we took pic w kongkong n it was fun~ xD
so many fun poses! but she's leaving. :(
took some photos on the way back.

2008-04-28T04:48:00.000-07:00

THANK GOD! (: [i'm smiling]
for the test results. extremely contented n happy.
Chinese 35/50 [god's grace]
S.S 9/15 ? [cant rmb but it's a B]
Physics 28.5/50 [abit dissapointed]
when i was having the s.s n physics test, i was sick.
so was really happy that i got more than juz a pass!
i onli studied 1 hr for s.s n it muz really be god's grace! (:
as for chinese..i onli do well for the li jie ce yan n for the
cloze passage and comprehension, it's a just-pass mark.
surprising yea? MY GOD IS SO AMAZING! <3333 Him!!!
gotta study n do pray for me. haven got time to update.
and yes. i hope sis keep her promise of setting blog shop w me! *hint hint*
xD

2008-04-09T02:21:00.000-07:00

i'm falling sick..think i got some infection. :( had flu 2 days ago n was feeling better today. (:
but din study much for my social studies and physics test due to my condition. sigh. but i prayed w my heart which i haven been doing after p6...i was like praying w the motive of getting good grades when i want to say i wan to glorify Him. so since den i did not utter those words. but for the past 2 days i did! i knew 1 hour++(less than 2hour n absolutely no studying few weeks ago n stuffs like that) would MOST LIKELY BE IMPOSSIBLE to even get a PASS. yes. if i really pass, may it be His glory. (: i LOVE Him! <3 and ppl dun be emo. i know some of you are sad over certain things BUT plz dun HURT yourself...and feel free to approach me though i dun promise i can help...but i can certainly listen. STAY STRONG ALL! (: bye.

2008-04-06T01:22:00.000-07:00

my ambitions...
it used to be psychology but god sort of din agree..
i have lost my passion for it and currently direction-less.
wad do i wanna be? i dun even noe. sigh.
all i know is that i will prob learn flower arranging, knitting n hair styling?
but that is just my interest bah. worse thing is that i dun even know i wan to go JC or poly.
sigh. hmmm. waiting for Him to reveal ... :)

2008-04-02T00:30:00.000-07:00

gosh! guess god is reminding me that i'm salt n light of the world which i wasnt doing. i defamed him instead. i went to isketch during lesson n i was "caught" ..man! it was embarassing lah but thank god the teacher dunno. =) den somemore i forgot my wallet and socks!?!? lol. but luckily wasnt caught by DM or anione...actually i prayed about it. hah! to all my non-christian friends i believe u will just say it's tyco or some coincidence... BUT GOD IS SO REAL! though i'm not a good example for christians... =.= BUT HE STILL LOVES ME! okies. cya. =)

2008-03-19T07:35:00.000-07:00

i've dropped my pure sciences to combine which i was so determined not to drop since last year. but guess god wanted me to drop and it definitely is a right choice! afterall i'm so stressed and struggling with it. but on monday i was actually crying all over it, not knowing whether to drop or not.. i'm gonna aim for an A for it! >.< ehhh gotta go n get stuffs done. haha. cya.

2008-03-15T03:12:00.000-07:00

woots! i didnt crawl or hug the tree today! i only hug pillars. haha. but i can skate already or at least i'm not walking. but i think i skate in some sort of heelys(heel roller shoe?) way and it's bad. thank god i din fell. :D o n god has been so sweet yesterday though i was abit disappointed about something. aniways, in the morning he gave me delicious curry puffs which i can buy from instead of the mama shop and after purchase, my bus came! >.< then my keyboard teacher also got me a souvenir from korea which i din expected! xD it was a cute korean married couple figurine! back to the roller blading thing. i pang-seh my fren lah...like anna and my fren. =x i kept pang-seh my fren coz it was really awkward since i dunno her fren. then i din get to go mcs since i was too noob. o well. i enjoyed it.haha

2008-03-14T07:56:00.000-07:00

gnk camp was great! could feel the presence of holy spirit and the kids were lovable. (: i heard the guys actually woke up abit earlier in the morning and prepare breakfast and sweep, mop? tats cool! din really help much though. =x went chinese tuition today since tmr is rollerblading! though i crawl n stuffs like that. 2 hw undone. sigh. k cya!

2008-03-08T01:08:00.000-08:00

oos! back from camp. learned how to evangelise through drawing of pictures which i thought should make things easier for us. (: i gonna make use of that next week! >.< oh then today learnt roller blading. and i was the lousiest. =.= i din know all my friends could skate or had experience before. i'm like the only one who took2 hours and still couldnt really skate..i could only walk -.- and it's not the teacher's(sam aka guo qiang?) fault. i was lazy n scared. hohoho. in the process, when i was alone, practising walking on the grass, i wanted to cry but manage to held back my emo-ness. sigh. luckily not a tear was at the edge of my eyes; i felt so stupid and inferior. i know i'm a slow learner for basically everything and i accept my fate just that i'm a greedy person. hopefully next week would be good since i cant really skate n EAST COAST PARK IS FULL OF PEOPLE ONE! *sweat* hopefully someone sweet would help me out in a slow pace (: till then! :D

2008-03-03T23:36:00.000-08:00

stressed! studied so hard for my chem test and i dun think i did well for it. i wasted my effort for nothing. so much tests to study for but i am currently too stressed to be able to study. sigh. with all the stress and selfish sister and friends who just seems to forget me makes me so tired and worn out. Save me O God!

My God, my God, why have you

forsaken me?

Why are you so far from saving me,

so far from the words of my groaning?

Do not be far from me,

for trouble is near

and there is no one to help.

Psalm22

2008-03-01T05:39:00.000-08:00

i realised something yesterday night. my sis ask me to get back to my room since i was waiting for my mum to come out of the toilet so i could use but she took quite long. my sis speak in quite a polite tone but also make me feel that she wanted my parents to herself. the min. i return to my room, she started playing"tickle"with my dad and of course i'm irritated! then a hour later i started to ponder why my heart react this way..i oso realised something. all these years i have been controlling her on certain stuffs without even realising why; in fact, i thought i probably like the authority? but it was only yesterday that all these time i was afraid that i would lose my position in the house and my presence and emotions would be forgotten. but still i have to admit that my parents love me...God told me many times through prophesies and it got to be true! HE's so SWEET~ although THEY LOVE ME, i believe they love my sister more and show favouritism just like any human(whether parents or not) :D

2008-02-23T02:11:00.000-08:00

sighh.she is so irritating... like for exams she always want to win me, be it i work harder or she..den like if my exam win her n her compo win me..she would like keep toking about e compo...wateva -.- but sometimes its so irritating and she gets me so pissed! juz 4days ago..we supposed to do compo during english relief period so i did wrongly since the topic is about parent-teenager relationship but i wrote parent-child(adult) one...so she was like "hey u wrong liao leh!" and her tone was seriously some sort of gloating and i'm seriously not being sensitive..n e teacher came to collect e paper but i felt so "argh" tat i tore e paper in front of tat 1-day relief teacher n this fren even try to calm me down.hey who is e one who got me tat pissed?OH GOD! how am i going to survive?

2007-07-20T05:50:00.000-07:00

haix...today was realli a bad day..since yesterday had a maths pop quiz(surprise quiz) n today we gt it bak...it's upon 10 and i gt 1/2 marks..so was a little sad..n i thot i was realli dumb since i failed my chem. test while studyin alot... =( so was feeling discouraged n depressed since i din noe in my class who really friend me...i dunno..was it bcoz i dun trust them bcoz i was once hurt deeply when i was in p6 ? i dunno...i juz feel tat they dun really wana friend me but was trying to be nice(but this let me feel like they are hypocrites coz sometimes they let me feel they dun like me).was really hurt n upset...nt being popular in class, nt chio, n the worse thing was NOT BEING SMART..if i was alittle mor smart...at least i could focus on my studies n pursue my dream job...but all these things i'm seekin for seems so hard...

ok bak to the lesson..i was feelin upset n all so i wanted to sleep perhaps to forget all my troubles n since i slept at 12 last nite...=.= so i faced the window direction n try to sleep..n mr sam thot i was depressed over the result..n the quiz wasnt counted as test...so why would i ?n ya..the whole class stared at me..makin me feel tat they are thinkin i was a crybaby...heartbroken...wad can i do? sigh...pray for things to change bahs... :)

2007-04-17T05:34:00.000-07:00

omg..e sch was up-ing e discipline startin with our attire first for like dunno hw mani weeks..n the teachers r quite scary..lolz..but it's for our own good so nvm..just so scary n sudden lorhs..dunno wad to sae..haix..o ya..tat day after sports day went wild wild wet but cant plae...rain rain rain..so get a free entry ticket instead...soooo....

SELLIN WILD WILD WET TICKET @ $11

(U.P $12.90 it must be used by 11May)

2007-04-02T06:20:00.000-07:00

heyy pplz sry..long time nv blog lohs..i think like no one come xcept xueling lors..=.= coz i nv giv ppl my link..my fault..xD aniways i dun think everyone reads everyone's blog..so ya..nvm..=) today went to botanic garden n it was NOT FUN! haha i knew it..but i wan be guai kia so went..xD but if i din go i dun think i will ever get a pat on my head..haha! so cool...lolz..i dun0 why but i like tat feelin when ppl pat on my head..perhaps bcoz it makes me feel like i become a small gal again! >.< n this is e 2nd time someone who i am nt close to gave me a pat on my head..OR is it my cuo jue? i dunno..cant be..it's gotta be pat..haha..e feeling is nt like by accident de lors..gtg cya..dun chek too often..lata ur get dissapointed..xD

2007-03-13T07:22:00.000-07:00

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are a very considerate person, but that doesn't mean you let people walk all over you.

You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it's hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style.

You have the perfect blend of confidence and class. You're proud of who you are - but you don't broadcast it.

In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

2007-03-12T07:04:00.001-07:00

You Are a Prophet Soul

You are a gentle soul, with good intentions toward everyone.
Selfless and kind, you have great faith in people.
Sometimes this faith can lead to disappoinment in the long run.
No matter what, you deal with everything in a calm and balanced way.

You are a good interpreter, very sensitive, intuitive, caring, and gentle.
Concerned about the world, you are good at predicting people's feelings.
A seeker of wisdom, you are a life long learner looking for purpose and meaning.
You are a great thinker and communicator, but not necessarily a doer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

2007-03-02T20:56:00.000-08:00

yupx..i'm selling these..feel free to order..xD 1set for $1.20
if u juz want to buy single one..it's at $0.80
any enquiries..leave them at my cbox..(:

2007-02-02T04:50:00.000-08:00

haha..so long liao..still haven del my prev post..nvm..i decided to post pics here..wun be a bad idea..haha..so it would be less boring haha..

2005-06-16T00:16:00.000-07:00

I'm deleting all the posts in this blog soon...So this blog will juz be the one used for linking.. Sorry..but i will be using xanga for blogging..

2005-06-09T18:11:00.000-07:00

Juz uploaded 3 out of 60 over pics taken at St John Island in my photo gallery...Here's the link-http://love72.blogspot.com

2005-06-07T06:47:00.000-07:00

Today we went to TropicalMarineScienceInstitution...then get to touch seahorses but they stink..They can squirt water one then ms toh say they coughing..too bad u all didn't go or else so gd lor...

2005-06-05T02:24:00.000-07:00

Byebye friends..I'm going for science camp tmr and the next day so u won't see me online..Remember to do your hw hor..Bye..=)

2005-06-01T18:11:00.000-07:00

I didn't went to the library yesterday as I had fever..Sorry Serene..I'll go to school tmr,I promise but i may be late...sorry contacts not up yet..plz be patient wif me ...thx..

Tired..love clip..

2005-05-31T01:04:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow going Jurong East Library with the history group..at 2pm *Sighz...my school holidays is gone..This whole week got to go here and there then next week camp here camp there...What about my homeworks ???Don't even have time to touch them..Click here if you want to know about God who loves us..(It won't take more than a minute)Contacts coming up soon.. =) Please bear with me..

2005-05-28T02:41:00.000-07:00

Just uploaded my music..Going back to school on 31st May,2nd and 3rd June for next week..Then comes my science camp..Yeh!

God's timing is always perfect..

2005-05-27T04:02:00.000-07:00

After school, i waited for Miss Toh until 1pm coz i wanna ask her bout' the science camp...but she go to meet the parents...So sad...Reluctantly, i left to see the chinese physician for my signes thing..It took me 2 hrs !!!After that, I went back to school hoping to find ms toh after praying in the bus n mrt...I went to the staff rm and find it quite empty so i didn't dare to call her..So i loiter around for less than a min and saw her comin out..I talk/pass to her something then left...