sigh. it seems like everything's going haywire. so much problems in 2days and it's nearing practical exams and final exams! argh! pissed. today... had a childish "fight" with a fren who is in her mid 30s! =.= my frens were tokin abt me posted to CGH(changi)which is very far coz i stay at jurong. so i was like "ya la! *slam table twice*u la!" to this fren. she suddenly juz fan lian. I find it really irritating coz apparently she was ok w it when i did tat yesterday evening and this morning. so suddenly she left her seat and went to the last seat and sit. i was like what on earth!!! everyone knows it's joking ard esp when my tone is really the crazy crazy kind one. she juz cant take it lor. den after tat class..she happen to go out 1st so she was waiting for the lift. obviously the lift is slow so when i reach the "lobby" she saw me and faster giv a certain kind of look(not at me...but the "i dun feel like seeing u"look)and went down the stairs. so i was like even more pissed lor! like hey...i haven even go near u and u did this?! i couldnt even find out wad make her angry or irritated. so i planned to skip my nxt CITS class which is like business CATS class..useless n boring. but i saw e teacher so i juz went lor =.= during the class i still can hear her talking n even laughing! i was like...gd lor... coz i rmb she said she was quite surprised she can clik w me n nw she juz fan lian bu ren ren tat kind of thing. i was rather upset den i finally couldnt take it..i went out of class w my hp to the stairs n cried real hard. but my frens thot i left coz of the 2guys beside me who were noisy n fooling ard.
den after class...i faster chiong out n go to library coz i dun wan to eat alone bcoz of a comment my colleague made... i ended up w choco hello panda n strawberry oreo bbt! n i bumped into my ex classmate n he agrees tat it was a joke.left library, wanted to study at canteen1 but i broke dwn again.so i start to pray.. den lecture. i din sit with her. duh. coz i cant be tat thick skin to sit beside her..n it most likely end up tat i was in e wrong. n so i couldnt do it coz i always wanted n pursue justice. how much more this time? after lecture..i was w my grp mate who wanted to copy my notes so we went for nxt tutorial together. n tat particular fren haven reach yet(surprisingly) so we sat dwn first. n when she came, she sat behind the grp sitting behind ours. which was zzz...coz in front of my row...my 2 grp mates were sitting there..she can juz join them! after 1 of the grp had finished presentation for a few moments..she actually cried. and the worst thing is they saw it. so 3 of them actually chased after her to the toilet. and after very long while, they came back. so i felt tat she might hav told tales to them since the 3 girls were whispering(but i couldnt really hear). but they stop e min the class is quiet n continue when the class is noisy..isnt tat fishy?
n i heard her side of story frm another fren. she said she thot i was scolding her...and she's very hurt coz i(her fren) accuse her. n i cant believe this actually came out of her mouth. a mid 30s lady. i'm very afraid she's juz making up tales..coz the most pathetic u look n cry..ppl will side u...and somemore she used to be in an office full of this kind of "politics" and she once said she was not very gd at it...so obviously she did it...but she's juz tired of gao xiao dong zuo everyday.
and basically i'm afraid she will do this to me..apparently i cried but din let anyone know by covering with my fringe. n i told my side of story only to 3 person whom i'm very close with n the others i din. as for her i'm not sure. the only reason i din tell others was i din want to do those kind of backstabbing n betraying again. ya again. bcoz it will really hurt god's feelings. he loved me so much.. last time primary sch..i was able to influence my frens to dislike a person to the extent of ostracising but also make them accept the person back again..it's weird la. e only reason i manage to control was prayer.
so basically we din tok to each other now. i'm not sure whether i should eat the humble pie coz i really feel it's nt fair. gonna pray abt this. i haven cried for this long. but i think i will study more bcoz of this. tats hw i work . o.O
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
CHERRY (:
