i finally know why. i was drifting away from god n i din even realise it. it was only when i did daily bread on tues. God spoke. i was struggling between campus crusade(wed) and studies. i din wan to go coz i really wanted to do well for nursing though i din really choose it. but this familiar verse appeared on the daily bread. "Seek first the kingdom of the Lord and all these things will be given to you". well. of course in the end i went for the campus crusade thing. it was good coz i could feel the holy spirit during worship. (: well there are still many thots going on in my head. so many ??? i guess i've to pray abt this ..
oh. sch. i got this classmate which makes use of me n she prob thinks i din noe?! when she's alone she'll ask me pei her den after tat if have class...like she will sit at the better seat to dump me alone. ok. nvm. but e point is she din even like say "hey i sit over there hor." to think i wait for like really long in the toilet! make me late somemore! arghhhhh! she is worst than someone i noe 2yrs back. god seems to like putting pang-seh kias ard me. =.= prob he wans me to love them. this time he make it harder for me to "level up". pang-seh nvm u noe. dun leave like suddenly n like in a split second.. my reaction time quite slow de leh! grrr..but god is gracious..he gave me true sincere frens too. guess he really wans me to learn LOVE. i'll try. but it's goin to take really long!
Thursday, April 30, 2009
CHERRY (:
been busy w sch to update. and somewhere within me is battling against me. could it be Satan? at times..i soar to the skies of happiness but to sink into the abyss of despair the next moment. there's been so much negative thots going on in my head. this time..it seems like i cant win. i cry over the tiniest stuff. i gets upset easily. and everyone seems to be using me. though i know n tried to believe that it's not true..i cant! i cant seem to control myself and those tears juz come and go. it's frustrating! argh. if only i have more time...den more QT more joy. sigh.
Monday, April 27, 2009
CHERRY (:
Hospital sponsorship. $850per mth[year1],$900[yr2],$950[yr3]
Should i apply? but i'll be bond to tat hospital for 3yrs. but it also means that i'll have a job straight away. dun have to go thru e trouble of finding job. but i want to take a degree but i'm not too sure about this yet. coz i dun really noe which field God wants me in. but if i were to work first n pursue a degree after tat bond..i at least know more details about the different fields.
i think there's this criteria that i have to maintain good results? if i dun...i have to pay them back the total amount they pay me?! that's like quite a lot if i dun do well only when after MONTHS. guess i have to pray abt it MORE. i made a prayer this afternoon when the sky was super dark n going rain. i told God to give me a sign...that if it dun rain even after i come out of the library(1hr++) it's ok for me to go for it. and tata! it din rain. hmmm. plz pray with me :( and the hospital i should apply. (:
Oh! and i realised tat my PDA is not going to be so toot afterall! it can store books! like on drugs? ((: wow cool! but it's $500++ dad's gonna pay :p
Monday, April 13, 2009
CHERRY (:
Random
wah sian.. nth to do now. cant play bejewelled on facebook. stupid flash! =.= even the brain game oso cannot play =.= just finished playing some kiddy game "fashion fits"..my eyes are tired..4more hours to work! yay! ((: tmr is good friday. i hope i'm not working. tsk. i totally forgot about it when i wrote my schedule last week =.= i still put 10-3pm! which means if i got work...i cant go church! argh. hopefully canceled. =(
hmmm. ate Kuro-dinosaur yesterday. not bad..but the taste of milo powder overpowered the caramel taste. so not as nice as Goma-mitsu. As for matcha...i haven tried it yet..actually wanted to eat yesterday but i wanted to try Kuro-dinosaur coz they dun do it all the time. o.O o wells. school's starting. gonna catch more dramas! just finished "My Little Chef" not bad! the food is so awesome! lol. crapping in this post...lol
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
CHERRY (:
decided to blog coz after reading quite a no. of blogs at this hour(1am)...感触良多..sigh. there are so many things going on in my head. The thought of Jesus' 2nd coming and the spiritual level of many ppl(including me) and the still yet unsaved loads of lost souls(of which many are my family n friends). i think i'm going crazy. so much to do and i want to help but there's so little i can do? it's awful. sigh. but thankfully..i think i'm progressing in my relationship with God. spending more time talking to Him..but sch's starting. it's somehow sure gonna affect the time i'm gonna spend. i quite like now..no school..just so carefree. o wells. sch starting is not going to change. juz gotta pray harder that i will set aside time every now and then. school, spending time w aunt&family, work, QT, Church, Cell, Exams, going out with friends. so much things. things going to work out i guess. by His grace. ((:
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
CHERRY (:
it's so long since i last update..hmmm..juz lost interest in comp bahs. as in comp is so boring and work is so fun..o.O at most check emails, blogs tat's all. sch's starting. shld i be happy or shld i be sad? i dun like to study leh. sian. and project work. better pray hard for good group members. =x my parents finally relented on me working at pepper lunch when sch starts. it was God opening doors. (: well. it's a secret. i'm not sharing it unless u ask me personally...and tat's provided i wan2 say. =x may close my blogshop coz of idiotic customers. argh.
Monday, April 06, 2009
CHERRY (:
