CHERRY (:
had work today. again. but i like it. but today's morale was really low. esp when i heard from my friend that the boss commented that i seem uninterested in the job. this was totally a blow from me. i hate it when ppl accuse/"accuse" me and stuffs like that. they dun even understand me. i'm too weird for ppl to understand. i'm fearfully n wonderfully made just that i'm too unique that it becomes weird. unique is just a nicer word i guess. o wells. "unique" sherry. at least god understands. hmmm. work is tiring but not very tiring..so it's good for me coz i wont lose sleep! (: i hope somehow they understand. shall pray. gtg. cya.
CHERRY (:
sigh. i cant go church tmr. sobx =( gotta work. no choice. i wan my cell outing to chinatown! i wan listen the 2nd half of sermon! but o wells. guess it's good too. god has a reason. heh. coz i veri scared to see kay poh ppl... ... nvm. will see how's work life on sunday is like! must pray hard that next sunday i can go church. but my off-day is on friday =.= sigh. at least i'm enjoying my work. (: hmmm. gotta sleep! nites!
CHERRY (:
just finished with the JAE. business!. hah! i love business courses! maybe it's god's will. ohh! and i found a job! Just hours after my results. like at nite? cool! today's my 3rd day. ((: at first morning was abit of negative? coz my fren was saying tat the boss was telling his wife tat i dun show eye contact to customers? ops! o.O o wells. so i tried to tackle my weakness today. dunno whether i survived. haha. it's habitual. hmmm... nvm. i managed to convince a customer to buy a card that costs $6! wow! i'm encouraged! thank god! i was praying in tongues(in my heart) in the shop this morning coz was really depressed. esp when i had language barrier with the boss since they are Koreans. =.= but they're really nice! or at least the lady boss is nice! ;P ok gtg. rest. tmr off day! yea! bye!
CHERRY (:
it's depressing to wake up hearing your family backstabbing u while they thot u were asleep. it's so wrong to be backstabbing someone they love(or at least i thot they loved me). like yesterday they were so nice n everything...but today they were backstabbing. THEY WERE LYING THROUGH THEIR TEETH! disgusting! sickening! irritating! argh! All they care just seems to be their "face" their "glory". wad abt my feelings? doesnt anyone cares? Even my aunt joined in the talk. Even my aunt! the one i loved a lot. i cant take this. i was so gullible to think they are humane enough to care BUT NO! not in my family. NEVER! i dunno whether a psycological barrier will pop up without me knowing and stuffs like tat. they dun deserve my love, they dun deserve my sweet surprises anymore. it's only now tat i realised tat family may not be reliable in times of trouble. Only God. He still loves me n will never forsake me. my cell mates were encouraging, unlike them. is results the only thing they cared for? den go ahead!
CHERRY (:
o lvl results. had a bad feeling yesterday but had peace. like prob e holy spirit prompted my parents to be nice...saying stuffs like "wateva the results muz come home...blah blah" it's so not them. i was totally shocked! i had a D7! A D7 IN MY O LVL CERT! LIKE WAD ON EARTH? and it's not AMATHS! it's humanities! which i worked real hard for(compared to amath)when O is nearing. like grr! so had my food therapy...ate milo bar, collon strawberry flavour, waffle. was so reluctant to go home but when i go home they are like quite nice... like "are you alright? how's ur results?" ... so i thot maybe my dad is gonna be like tat too..BUT NO! he wasnt! after his bath n dinner he asked me hw i did..den i was like..din mum tell him yet? nvm. told him. i thot he will be nice enough to say someting nice BUT he grumbled n stuffs like tat! DOESNT I FEEL UPSET OVER MY RESULTS? dont i have feelings?dont i experience dissapointment ? hello?! i was just suppressing them! besides my L1R4 improved 8pts n L1R5 10 pts(comparing prelims n O) so not tat bad. o wells. CNY coming. maybe i should go find a job while i pray abt NYP. god still loves me n had reasons for tat. just gotta decipher his purpose. hope my fellow christian friends are still holding on to him. God dun deserve to be out of our life just because of results n dissapointment. He DID SO MUCH!
CHERRY (:
tmr the results gonna come out. dunno how it will be. frens ard me(who are smarter)kept telling me stuffs like they are scared and etc. but i dun feel that fear. not tat i'm smart or complacent but worrying doesnt seems to help. PRAYING HELPS! why would i waste my time worrying? o wells. i'm still not scared but maybe i'll get the jitters tmr..but i have faith in my God! Whatever the results, he will still prosper me. just that i'll prob be dissapointed in myself. Jeremiah29:11 For i know the plans i have for you, " declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
CHERRY (: