CHERRY (:
maybe it's god's will. it's god's will for the quarrel. so perspective? nah. the daily bread said "The will of God is the gladdest, brightest, most bountiful thing possible to conceive, and yet some of us talk of the will of God with a terrific sigh as if his will were the most calamitous thing that could befall us"
CHERRY (:
man. my sis is being irritating by reading my blog. wad makes her think tat she is always right ? since young, i have never agree with all her nonsence stuffs. but i just kept quiet. this time i'm not going to apologise like last time when fault was not mine. everytime is me. my parents are real biased. and i dun feel anything for them. i knew tat fact long ago. be it the root of the problem is who...the fault tends to be mine. i'm not going to let anyone hurt me anymore. no more. she can dun talk to me for all i care coz i'm not going to start first. even when i cook stuffs for my family to eat and she din eat, they blamed me for cooking too much. like hello?! this is the family i have.
CHERRY (:
just read my sis blog. got more irritated. she act as though she dun care wad i wrote. and i noe she read. it's her. she always do tat. she said abt the CPF thingy but did she understand hw my dad felt? they were afraid tat this girl will not be able to return him his hard-earned money. coz her calling was missions. ya.
CHERRY (:
she's at fault and do she think i'm supposed to patch things up? man, i'm never going to let her让我受委屈! If she din know, this time round she exceed my limit. since young, she is so capable of making me go mad at her n do stupid things like throwing shoes at her even when i was 7. and this time, i waited 30min before i got real mad and all i did was only take out my ds lite to irritate her. i actually wanted to confront her but my parents are sleeping! and yesterday i'm sooo stupid to even relent! i actually didnt complain to my dad abt tat matter which i'm totally sure he would side me as he liked us to sleep early for health sake. i regretted. afterall i used to be a complain king(not queen!) 10 years back. so what's wrong ? back to the hypocrite. she usually dun communicate when she watches shows on her imac and yesterday she broke record. she actually converse with my mum for quite long...she usually finds all of us irritating when she's watching shows and will shoo us off after few minutes. my first impression: hypocrite. and i'm rather blah by tat fact. and it din really bother me coz i have my aunt juz tat i never like hypocrites.
CHERRY (:
grr! it's been 4yrs since i'm so angry! my whole body was actually shaking while laying on the bed last night. my sis which ppl had good impression was soooo childish! a 20-year old actually delibrately packed her table at 12midnight just because 她吃不下那口气！We were talking about macs delivery thingy and ya i got the information wrong. so what? does she even have to hit my head? quite hard. so we squabbled(ding zui)? den dad told us to stop so she stop first...only to realise she actually pack her table 1 hr later..like hello?! she's at home like the whole day staying in front of her imac and not packing her table!?!? 你不觉得可笑吗？天啊！so i just cover myself in the blanket and tried to sleep. but she went overboard! she kept on "ping peng" the stuffs as she pack and after 30mins i cant tolerate it anymore! irritated, i took my ds lite and open the "taiko drum" game and played the most horrid music 3times but not playing the game and she still act as though she is busy. SHE EVEN COUNTED HER STUPID SAGA SEEDS AT MIDNIGHT! one by one putting them back into her bottle..so nvm..i tried to sleep but too agitated so wrote journal and in the end from 12midnight i waited until 1.50A.M.(while doing some stupid things in the process)before she actually off the light on the ceiling when we actually have a table lamp but she does not want to use? how considerate! to think tat morning i actually dun wan to enter the room when my aunt was vacumming the floor. i was scared to disturb her since she slept late like 1+ or 2+ just to watch some shows? i mean cant she be more considerate? pissed, i set 3alarm to wake her up today. 1watch&1clock at 7am which i off it. den hp at 8am which she off it.
CHERRY (:
唉，我好烦好烦哦...昨天我明明知道自己做的决定是错的但始终这么做。。但是我也不知如何是好， 心情好矛盾哦。。我知道他们非常需要人手帮忙可我却这么不负责人的一直想要逃出来。。更何况有一个人在他们的组已经要退出了，要是连我也走，他们两个可不可以应付地来？我也不知道神他要我在哪里为他付出(serve?)唉，我必须先过得了自己那一关因为我真得非常讨厌被人逼。。一旦被逼都有不堪设想的后果。。我这个星期天应该去吗？还是应该先去我老师的教堂“避难”一下? 我又不忍心拒绝他们。。但是我又知道一旦做出了这个决定就代表我愿意commit. 我更怕的是我会和祖疏远。。唉， 希望我会做出队的选择。。
CHERRY (:
sigh. last cell meeting. sigh. all good things has to come to an end afterall. but somehow i felt more sad as compared to leaving sch though the time spent was once a week only. guess the times spent in church was more memorable...all that suan tian ku la... guess i'm gonna keep recalling those times coz if not i will forget it(as said by some specialist??)
CHERRY (:
prom nite yesterday. well i din really feel tat sad as compared to p6 graduation. prob coz i din enjoy my sec sch days. it's so tormenting. anyways had an enjoyable time. i made my hair with xueling at some place and went to yew tee to cab. thot we were late but it haven really started so not tat bad. anyways went home and realised my dad said my hair was like nothing(like he told my sis or smt) waste $$. zzz. it was nicee wad! dunno style den like tat. men will always be men. o wells. took some photos. i spent like less than $100 for a prom nite?!?! still want complain. still love daddy god better. he got me a red ds lite export set at the price i wanted! he loved me sooo soo much! my parents are biased wad can i do? o i'm supposed to meet claudia, anna and rachel for shopping like now? and i'm still at home. hohoho. so tired. we'll see.
CHERRY (: