sigh. went to black&white camp yesterday and it turned out the way i want. i went because my friends asked me to go but they are busy with their invited friends, i understand. i was with another friend whom i dragged to go but she just din seem to be able to accept me or something..could tell that she was emo or something so i tried to cheer her up by talking all sorts of nonsence, trying to divert her attention but it backfired. She "push" me to my other friend which makes me felt like i was just a thing, not even human. i din understand why and all the negative pheronomone came and i was down. luckily, i had my cabury boost, loves the chocolate effects and i stayed high. after all that games and stuffs, we had to walk the dragon trail in Sentosa which i feared most...there's like monitor lizards and everything. nvm about natural fears since i prayed in tongues..there's the man-made fears which freaked me out. they were wearing masks, something which i was afraid of since young..omg lah. cried and it was super embarassing... =x man, the camp was fun but there's not much moral lesson, i guess. anyways, maybe i should change the place where is my sanctuary since i dun seem to belong there..but God said NO. sigh.
Saturday, August 09, 2008
CHERRY (: