so much to do but only 1 sherry.
desires vs obligations.
argh. crap.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
CHERRY (:
God makes e GREATEST IMPOSSIBLE possible!I survived w 4hrs of sleep yesterday...n today w 3hrs of sleep!
AND somemore i'm such a pig!I need at least 6hrs of sleep!n e only time I really survived w 6hrs of sleep was for o lvl...ya..tat bad.
And there's a long story behind e 3hrs of sleep!god was very cute!I was trying to sleep at 11+ listening to a lecture recordin..den suddenly at 12+..my fren reply my sms 1hr20min late..den at e same time e lecture juz finish.ya super dramatic!den i was practically wide awake!went to study until 2.55 den insomnia until 3.40!
woke up at 6.40!n nt e tired kind of wake up rather like e 6-8hrs kind...quite fresh.(:
God did not turn his face away..juz tat i haven been working hard :x prob took his grace for granted..but seriously i have no motivation!i din really choose nursing afterall... ...
Friday, August 28, 2009
CHERRY (:
0%done for tmr's mic...11more hrs to e exam!11chap to go...at least 5hrs of sleep needed!so 6hrs for a subject I hate most!juz flipping thru e pages...sigh.and there's no dg nor cell this friday !:( meaning also no shape!:(shall go find my little jaren den!(: he sure makes my day!
Looking forward to 31st too!ministry outing !ohh..n was thinking of joining navigators too...not sure...scared i'll burn out...sigh. haix...
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
CHERRY (:
Juz finish paper..this morn before e paper my life was real screwed!everything is juz so wrong!but god was gracious..wad I studied came up!but...I think I screwed it all up.. :( sigh.and there's a 10marks question which I din manage to do coz I din study :( hope god do a miracle for me! :( sigh...
CHERRY (:
life is amazing. the way god do things. how he really turns the situation. it's hard to explain.
i get frustrated at first when things go wrong esp when u dun see e big picture. but as you are "forced" into the circumstance..god slowly reveals n then you start to see the big picture and you know it was not a coincidence tat kind of thing.
k. here goes e long story...
this afternoon, my fren called me to ask me help her take over her work coz she has to send her pet for grooming(appointment). yup. gave quite a lot excuse but gave in coz she's quite gd in convincing and coz the appointment. but i was quite pissed coz i planned to study n rest before goin cell. but when i reach there i was only filled with joy&high-ness(it's hard to explain)n i met a new colleague. so this girl is really special..as in she's quite open..like i know her less than a hour she tell me tat she has alot of family problems n stuffs(but din really elaborate).but she kept repeating some questions ..related to her self esteem n self confidence? yup was rather bad. dunno whether it's intentionally so tat she can get attention or juz really super low confidence. n i juz felt tat this girl prob really needs god? ya she's a buddhist. i think her uncles and aunties are erm...mediums??? it's complicated. only know her for like 3hr??? sigh. do pray for her. :(
CHERRY (:
ahhh. finally. it's over..main service was gd juz tat those KPO aunties(:x) ard with those kind of stares irritates me alot. was glad tat i was nt affected to the extent of leaving halfway during the service. somehow felt tat God said it's ok. He even reminded me tat i'm accountable to Him[and i'm NOT CONDEMNED!] n NOT ACCOUNTABLE TO THE AUNTIES.. thru a convo i had w yvo few wks bak. n for serving..kinda felt He really wans me at GNK..i did some "tikum tikum" 2 weeks bak n it was GNK..so today a. salome came n approach me. rather weird coz i thot i was already in tat ministry? o wells. i'm bak in it! (:
wah this few wks been learning alot..life gets amazing n exciting each day. discovering His will and what's He's going to teach me each new day was cool n interesting! That toughest 1wk was prob worth it coz it brought me bak to Him.
maybe i shld start blessing others now tat i'm filled w joy almost daily..before another trial starts coming up. :x hah. n when i'm tired i shall rest n be alone(: yup. (:
as for the gifts which i discovered..evangelism n encouraging..hopefully He reveals to me how to use it. (:
else i might keep them in my cupboard =x
A verse yesterday tat brightens my day coz it kinda guide me(: Jhn12:26 (:
Sunday, August 09, 2009
CHERRY (:
juz realised smt. when you intentionally do something(for a good cause), it is likely for it to backfire. stupid. i feel so dumb. ARGH!
i've been doing quite well for my tests and quizzes(those not online one) coz i prayed(i really study very little!)... so i was like telling my frens tat all I did was my best n prayed. but juz now on the bus i start to analyse this..and realise tat it will mislead ppl to think i'm a closet mugger! =.= and tat would like prob affect ppl's opinion of us christians! =.= how stupid! trying to sow some seeds here n there...only to make things worse. argh! so freaking irritating.
today had this MIC mock exam of which today i only spent 5-10min studying..n ZERO min n hr on other days...i gt a passing mark of 17.5/35! and tat is really the power of prayer! not tat i dun wan to study..juz tat these few days n weeks have been caught up with stuffs, emo frens ard, other tests and subjects i'm focusing on. God has been so real man. though a lot of my frens "did"(cheat)well like full marks...and others who studied got 20++...my joy is overwhelming. i feel so blessed. got to spend some time alone today in sch. shall nt tell ur my hideout. :p n it was great spendin juz a little of my time alone with Him (:
ok shall end here! :)
Thursday, August 06, 2009
CHERRY (:
sigh. it seems like everything's going haywire. so much problems in 2days and it's nearing practical exams and final exams! argh! pissed. today... had a childish "fight" with a fren who is in her mid 30s! =.= my frens were tokin abt me posted to CGH(changi)which is very far coz i stay at jurong. so i was like "ya la! *slam table twice*u la!" to this fren. she suddenly juz fan lian. I find it really irritating coz apparently she was ok w it when i did tat yesterday evening and this morning. so suddenly she left her seat and went to the last seat and sit. i was like what on earth!!! everyone knows it's joking ard esp when my tone is really the crazy crazy kind one. she juz cant take it lor. den after tat class..she happen to go out 1st so she was waiting for the lift. obviously the lift is slow so when i reach the "lobby" she saw me and faster giv a certain kind of look(not at me...but the "i dun feel like seeing u"look)and went down the stairs. so i was like even more pissed lor! like hey...i haven even go near u and u did this?! i couldnt even find out wad make her angry or irritated. so i planned to skip my nxt CITS class which is like business CATS class..useless n boring. but i saw e teacher so i juz went lor =.= during the class i still can hear her talking n even laughing! i was like...gd lor... coz i rmb she said she was quite surprised she can clik w me n nw she juz fan lian bu ren ren tat kind of thing. i was rather upset den i finally couldnt take it..i went out of class w my hp to the stairs n cried real hard. but my frens thot i left coz of the 2guys beside me who were noisy n fooling ard.
den after class...i faster chiong out n go to library coz i dun wan to eat alone bcoz of a comment my colleague made... i ended up w choco hello panda n strawberry oreo bbt! n i bumped into my ex classmate n he agrees tat it was a joke.left library, wanted to study at canteen1 but i broke dwn again.so i start to pray.. den lecture. i din sit with her. duh. coz i cant be tat thick skin to sit beside her..n it most likely end up tat i was in e wrong. n so i couldnt do it coz i always wanted n pursue justice. how much more this time? after lecture..i was w my grp mate who wanted to copy my notes so we went for nxt tutorial together. n tat particular fren haven reach yet(surprisingly) so we sat dwn first. n when she came, she sat behind the grp sitting behind ours. which was zzz...coz in front of my row...my 2 grp mates were sitting there..she can juz join them! after 1 of the grp had finished presentation for a few moments..she actually cried. and the worst thing is they saw it. so 3 of them actually chased after her to the toilet. and after very long while, they came back. so i felt tat she might hav told tales to them since the 3 girls were whispering(but i couldnt really hear). but they stop e min the class is quiet n continue when the class is noisy..isnt tat fishy?
n i heard her side of story frm another fren. she said she thot i was scolding her...and she's very hurt coz i(her fren) accuse her. n i cant believe this actually came out of her mouth. a mid 30s lady. i'm very afraid she's juz making up tales..coz the most pathetic u look n cry..ppl will side u...and somemore she used to be in an office full of this kind of "politics" and she once said she was not very gd at it...so obviously she did it...but she's juz tired of gao xiao dong zuo everyday.
and basically i'm afraid she will do this to me..apparently i cried but din let anyone know by covering with my fringe. n i told my side of story only to 3 person whom i'm very close with n the others i din. as for her i'm not sure. the only reason i din tell others was i din want to do those kind of backstabbing n betraying again. ya again. bcoz it will really hurt god's feelings. he loved me so much.. last time primary sch..i was able to influence my frens to dislike a person to the extent of ostracising but also make them accept the person back again..it's weird la. e only reason i manage to control was prayer.
so basically we din tok to each other now. i'm not sure whether i should eat the humble pie coz i really feel it's nt fair. gonna pray abt this. i haven cried for this long. but i think i will study more bcoz of this. tats hw i work . o.O
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
CHERRY (:
ooo..nv blog for 2 weeks le...haha busy w Clinical Attachment. I LOVE ST LUKE(Bukit Timah) they love the old folks and really take gd care of them! :D anyone wan join me be volunteer on 1 fine day? xD woodlands polyclinic was nt bad..juz tat some 2 ppl spoil my whole attachment. =.=
but the nurses there are quite nice coz they really teach us..and there's this Dr Anita..really make me feel like being a doc instead of nurse. =x o wells.
today i ate SUKIYAKI BEEF and it tastes SUPERB! my colleague help me cook somemore. (: den 50%! :D wahaha. $4.45 :D
OHH! btw any girls wan to buy cheap taiwan bags???
i want to buy lehhh...wan to join me coz i need altogether 15 orders in order for me to purchase it. :(
how it works: TWD/20 x 103.9% + 40cents + total shipping fees/15 [unknown..at most $4?)
Saturday, June 27, 2009
CHERRY (:
